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I’m spending my time in a writer’s paradise — well, anyone’s paradise. People from all over the world come to Martha’s Vineyard. It’s the “Lap of Luxury” for the New England area. You have it all — sun, relaxation, great food, and much more. I have been trying to take advantage of all that I can, trying to relax and get some sun. I have realized that I don’t tic as much as usual when I am relaxing on the beach.
Could it be the vitamin D from the sun, or am I just that relaxed that my tic decided to take a break? I’ve tried to pay attention, and I’m pretty sure I’m not suppressing them. I have been suppressing my tics for so many years, it’s second nature. Half the time I’m not even sure if I’m suppressing or not. However, I have found it interesting, and when I get back to New York, I want to try to take some vitamin D supplements. Hey, why not? It’s worth a shot. Just one more attempt to escape from the beast inside of me.
I have been quite relaxed in the sense of my anxiety, but still have been a bit stressed out. I know that sounds like an oxymoron, but after 37 years, I have realized there is a difference. When you look up stress in the thesaurus, anxiety is one of the top words, but there is a difference — especially if you have anxiety disorder.
They are very similar, but I have been so relaxed, that my anxiety level has been so low, and life is quite enjoyable. Anxiety controls and takes over your whole body, but I feel as if stress is just in your mind. You can breathe off some stress, but at least for me the anxiety just lives there. If you’re anxious, you almost have to just ride it out, and I’ve been riding it out for a long time.
You think that living in the “Lap of Luxury” would be stress free, but paradise isn’t always what it seems. The house that I’m staying at is my cousin’s and her wife’s home, and there are many people staying there. This week the number of permanent people has increased to 10 people. We all have our own separate spaces — there is the main house and a guesthouse. Still, with the amount of people, there are bound to be some head butting issues.