Tourette’s and OCD, Cousins or Siblings?

I have yet to meet another person with Tourette’s who does not also have at least one comorbid condition. For me, there has not just been one, but at least three of these ‘cousins’ as they are frequently called.

There are so many disorders and syndromes that are so closely related and occur simultaneously that I could not possibly begin to list them all. the symptoms of some disorders are so similar that it is easy to mistake one for another. There are many people who go misdiagnosed because of this. This is why comorbid conditions are often referred to as “cousins”, because they are so similar and closely related, just as members of a family might be.

I have family members who have been mistaken for each other either because they sound like the other person over the phone or because they look so much alike that someone who has not seem either one of them in a long time mistook one for the other. For example, when my sister and my cousin were younger, people mistook them for sisters rather than cousins when they were together. My sister has always looked as though she belonged to my aunt rather than my mother.

Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) is one of the conditions that can co-occur with Tourette’s. A person with OCD has obsessions and compulsions. Basically, you have an obsession, a thought that will not leave and causes you anxiety, and the only way to relieve that anxiety is to carry out a compulsion. The obsessions and compulsions can consist of a variety of things.

Everyone forgets what day of the week it is once in a while. At least, I think everyone does that once in a while. I’m really hoping it’s not just me. For me, though, it causes this anxiety and I think, “Oh my gosh, I thought today was Saturday and it’s really Friday. What if I forget what day it is tomorrow and something bad happens because I forget what day it is and forget to do something or go somewhere?”  Actually, it feels a bit more like this as it goes through my head,

“OHMYGOSHITHOUGHTTODAYWASSATURDAYANDITSREALLYFRIDAYANDWHATIFIFORGETWHATDAYITISTOMORROWANDSOMETHINGBADHAPPENSBECAUSEIFORGOTWHATDAYITISANDFORGETTODOSOMETHINGORGOSOMEWHEREORSOMETHINGLIKETHAT!?!?!?!?”

To relieve the anxiety caused and keep ‘imagined bad thing that will happen because I forgot what day it was’ from happening, I repeat this over and over in my head or even out loud if it feels necessary, “Tomorrow is Saturday, not Sunday because today is Friday, not Saturday.”

For a lot of us who have both OCD and Tourette’s, it is sometimes easy to mistake the two as siblings.

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Positive distractions

This past weekend was quite difficult. My head jerking tic came back with a vengeance. It has been painful and exhausting. After a day or two, I realized I had a giant lump on the base of the back of my neck. The next day I began one of my hitting tics, which is hitting my shoulder repeatedly. So, as you can imagine, it was not long before I had a bit of a bruise on my right shoulder. Today, I am not ticking nearly as much, but I am still a bit sore.

It was not just physically that I have felt exhausted, but mentally as well. The only other time I could think of when my tics actually hurt was when they first became a huge problem and I was finally diagnosed with Tourette’s. So, those thoughts and the anxiety that it was going to continue getting worse before it would get any better added to the natural effects of sitting around and doing nothing all weekend…well, you can probably imagine how epically BLAH I felt. 

I will admit that by Sunday evening, when I had started my hitting tic, I was beginning to feel downright horrible and slightly depressed. As I sat at home by myself Monday, I started searching within myself for ways to make myself feel better. I quickly discovered that all the old negative coping skills I used to apply in this situation were all that I could think of. I wondered…where have all the positive distractions I had adopted in time?

This morning, as I was browsing the YouTube universe, I came across a video by Emma Blackery about being angry and things to do when you are angry that will help you feel better and calm down. As I was watching this video, I began thinking of the positive distractions and coping skills that I have learned over the years. So, I thought I would share some of the things I love to do that really help calm me down when I’m anxious or upset or angry or help distract me when I am feeling depressed.

NUMBER 1!!!
Music. Everyone loves music. You can’t tell me that you genuinely do not like music of some kind. Not everyone likes the same genre of music or the same artists, but I am pretty positive that we all like some form of music or another. If not, let me know because I have never met anyone who doesn’t.

Anyway…yeah…Music is a great escape. When you can find a song that expresses exactly how you are feeling in that moment, it is as if someone finally understands what you are going through and what you are feeling. And when you find out that someone else likes the same artists or songs, you instantly have something in common with that person that you can talk about. Music brings people together in ways you can’t even imagine. Music can brighten your day and bring a whole new perspective and attitude into your day. Happy music makes people happy!

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It’s that time of year again …

Well, it’s that time of year again that every ticcer seems to look forward to and dread at the same time — the holiday season. With all the commotion, excitement, preparation and family, tics always seem to run rampant this time of year. Today is the day of my family’s yearly Hanukkah party and my tics are getting pretty darn forceful.

After 5 months of CBIT treatment for my tics, my tics have been steadily decreeing, and i’ve started to get used to having less tics. However, coming home for winter break and having the holiday season has not been great for my tics.

Being around my family members is very stressful for me (tic wise), and I’m sure those of you who have been following my blog for a while know why. For those of you who have not been following my blog, I’ll just say this: I come from a family who values perfection and social status, and Tourette’s doesn’t really fit into that mold very well. Don’t get me wrong, I love my family and I really do enjoy being home and spending time with them, but it’s very rough on my tics and anxiety.

Being in my home environment has quickly made my tics increase. When I saw my CBIT therapist last week, she immediately noticed how much I was ticcing and told me she hadn’t seen my tic this much in months. We discussed new strategies to try to decrease my tics in the home environment, such as taking “tic breaks” where I excuse myself to go to the bathroom while i’m around my family and just trying to spend less time around my family members (spending time with them in 30 min increments).

These strategies seem to be helping to some extent, but my tics are still much worse than they have been over the past few months. As soon as i’m able to escape to a place where I can let my tics out, I start having so many facial tics, vocal tics, head and neck tics, and even full body tics. The other day I spent a solid period of time parked in a parking garage kicking, vocal ticcing, and jerking my body so hard that I felt my brain rattling around in my skull and got pretty dizzy.

Right now, I’m up in my room while my parents prepare for the party. I’ve been helping prepare for the party quite a bit, but I had to escape to my room to tic and also to avoid the onion cutting. When my mom cuts onions for the Latkes for this party, my sensory processing issues go into overdrive as soon as my eyes feel any small amount of onion.

It feels as if the onions are going in through my eyes and are filling my entire head with this sour and tingling feeling. The feeling will last for hours after the onions have been cut. Even though i’ve been avoiding the downstairs as much as I can, I’ve still gotten a bit of the onion feeling in my eyes. It’s not nearly as bad as last year, but it’s definitely still contributing to my tics.

I’m having a lot of tics right now. I hope they calm down for the party, but I kind of doubt they will. Luckily one of my very good friends will be coming to the party. Having her there will help me feel better, and like the previous years i’ll be able to come upstairs with her to let out my bigger tics.

Anyway, I will probably make a post after the party is over about how it went. Happy Holidays to everyone, and good luck to everyone trying to manage the holidays with tics!

Can you help me with my research?

I am currently an undergraduate student studying Special Educational Needs and Inclusion at Bishop Grosseteste University. I am currently working on my undergraduate dissertation and it is at this point that I need your help!

I am looking for pupils to participate in a research study looking at the relationship between Tourette Syndrome and education, and I am looking for students personal experiences to inform my study. If you are willing to take part I will ask you to fill out a questionnaire which outlines your experiences with Tourette Syndrome and your experiences in school. No one other than me will have access to any of your personal information, and all names will be removed in the research in order to keep you anonymous.

If you have any further questions before completing the questionnaire please feel free to email me at b1202163@student.bishopg.ac.uk.

I would be truly greatful to hear your experiences, as I want to fully explore any relationship that can be found between TS and education, to see if there’s anything that we can do to to make education better for everyone!

Thank you to everyone who offered me encouragement on my page

Thank you so much to those of you who commented on my post from the other day by coming over to my Facebook page and offering encouragement! Everyone who commented brought light to my day and encouraged me so much. I am so glad to hear that I have helped so many people though my page.

One of my absolute favorite things to hear is that a parent is sharing my posts with their child who has TS. Some of you commented to say that your child looks forward to my posts and that my posts encourage them and make them feel less alone. I cannot express how good this makes me feel and how much I love making a difference in your children’s lives.

I also love hearing how your kids are doing and about how my site is helping them, so please comment on my posts to let me know how things are going or send me a message and it will probably make my day!

Also thank you to those of you who are adults with TS who commented letting me know my posts have helped you! I love to hear that my stories and posts about my “adventures” as a college student living with TS are helpful and inspiring to you.

Today is a much better day. Even though my ticcing is still pretty bad, my body seems to be less sore and seems to have gotten used to the increased ticcing. Also my OCD thoughts are better and I’m moving though my day with a better attitude. I know that all of your comments have contributed to the fact that today has been a lot better .