About KatieD

My name is Katie, I have Tourette Syndrome, OCD, and Anxiety, but it doesn't have me. I am currently a Junior in college and hope to go on to motivational speaking as a career once I graduate.

Different Sides of TS

Having Tourettes for 15 years, I thought I knew everything about them. Or, at least everything about mine, but every once in a while I learn something new.

I have learned a lot about myself during this time. I have my normal everyday tics and noises that consist of hitting my sides, tightening every muscle in my body, as well as squeaks and grunts. I know that when I’m really happy or excited my tics are exemplified. My squeaks get louder and I have a full body tic where I’m smiling. When I’m mad or really upset I usually grunt and have a full body tic. I know I have my tics that only happen when I’m in the car, where I very quickly hit the gas with my foot revving the engine, or I ever so slightly turn the wheel quickly in one direction and then place it back going straight. I know whenever somethings on my head, such as sunglasses or a beanie, I usually have a head tic where I throw my head back. Along with that I have learned that too many sugary foods such as simple carbs (they turn into sugar in your body), sweets, and fruits make them worse. I’ve learned that when my tics are really bad and I have a lot of excess energy running or heavy duty exercising can help reduce them. I know if I do not take my medication at the same time everyday, or if I miss a couple of pills that my tics will get worse. I recover faster from too many sugary foods than missing my medication. There are waxing and waining period for Tourettes, and in the spring they usually get worse.

This is the majority of what I’ve learned, but what others notice and do can take me by surprise. When I have a lot of little tics and I don’t realize them, sometimes someone will let me know and I’ll be stunned thinking, “I thought I hadn’t been ticing at all.” When I get distracted and stop ticing all together because, in a sense, I have “forgotten” I had tourettes, I am surprised when someone brings it up because I didn’t realize I hadn’t ticed in X amount of time. I’ve found out when I become close to people, they normally don’t even realize I’m ticking anymore because they get used to is, which is nice for me to know. But my favorite was when my best friend asked me what I was concentrating on over the phone, and when I asked how’d she knew, she told me I have different tics when I’m concentrating, which I never knew.

Through trials and tribulations I have learned a lot about myself. I am consistently growing and trying to find more out about TS, and about my form of TS. It is just nice to know I’m not the only one discovering new things :)

It Has Been A While

Hello there!
I had been a blogger on here a while ago. Sadly, time had gotten away from me because of college and my studies, but I have more time on my hands so I wanted to get back into this!

I believe when I had started blogging I was either a senior in high school or a freshman in college. A lot has changed since then. I am currently a super senior in college. I have one final class this semester before graduating in December. College has been a lot of fun, and I truly feel that throughout this experience I have found myself. I know what I want to strive for to better myself and continue on my path of becoming the best me possible, and I believe I have matured into a woman who is a lot different then who I used to be (which I am very happy about). In high school I was very insecure. I looked to my peers on how to act, what was cool, and who I thought I wanted to be. I wanted to fit in, and honestly, who doesn’t? But high school was hard, I was only 18 when I graduated. Now being 22, almost 23, I realize how much I didn’t know about myself. I used to define myself only as the girl who has Tourette Syndrome. That was honestly all I thought people saw me for, but I was wrong. After some therapy and work, I was able to see that my TS was not who I was, it was only a small portion. I am a lovely, smart, funny, and charismatic woman who loves learning and being silly! Those are just a few words that I would sue to describe me. Now, I do not see my tourettes as a burden, but something that has made me stronger, something that I wouldn’t want to change. Instead of being ashamed of my tics, I have grown to continually learn more about them and myself and laugh with it. When I have a really excited tic, or when I’m really happy I usually tic and then giggle and smile. My friends know how I’m feeling without me having to tell them because of it. They know my happy tics from my mad tics, and my concentrating tics from my everyday tics. It has made me me, and now when people describe me and they say you know, the blonde girl who has tourettes? I’m not ashamed or mad, I’m happy about it. It makes me stick out, in my opinion, in a good way.

Granted, having TS can still be challenging. I still get some mean glares, or people making fun of it behind me back, but they don’t matter to me. If they knew me as a person and if they can’t put two and two together realizing that if I’m continuously twitching I’m not doing it on purpose, then I don’t care about them. They’re not important enough for me to spend time on. I’ll get this in passing sometimes, but it’s okay. I try to advocate as much as possible, but sometimes you can’t get to everyone. And honestly, I love advocating about it. I love when people come up to me and ask if I’m okay, even if it’s in passing. It makes me so happy because it shows me they’re concerned and care. I love educating and allowing someone to see if firsthand, so maybe the next time they see someone who has similar signs they’ll know and possibly be able to help or make the connection that this person has TS. Even if they can’t remember the name, they’ll think, oh hey wait I was that girl who had something similar to this, this person is okay.

I am happy there is more awareness and recognition for TS. I remember in 3rd grade when I was advocating for it in class, no one knew about it. In those years, times truly have changed. Almost always now whenever I tell someone I have tourettes and ask if they know what it is, they say yes. I still sometimes get ones who don’t know, but I love telling them and helping them understand its involuntary, just like a sneeze. I feel like educating others on it is so important, just like any other disability, or as I would prefer to call it, a little something extra.

Anyways, this post is already way too long. But it feels good to be back. I will be writing again soon, and I hope that if you guys ever have any comments, need help, or even advice, you’d leave a note. I love helping others, especially on this subject.

I hope you all have a wonderful day and I’ll talk to you soon!

Wisdom teeth aren’t that terrifying for tics

Hey guys! So recently I got my wisdom teeth taken out and I wanted to share my experience with you. I am currently still recovering from surgery, and am sporting a little bit of chipmunk cheeks. They’re cute but I cannot wait to get rid of them! Anyways, I wanted to share what it was like to have the surgery and be in recovery because I know that before getting it I was terrified.

When I got there, I thought they were going to put me to sleep, which did not happen. I was awake throughout the whole surgery, but it went by very fast. The first thing they asked was if I liked music, and of course I said yes. The doctor asked if I had any requests to put on, and of course I said Panic! At The Disco because they are my all-time favorite band.

So he put that music on, and then gave me laughing gas. I was afraid of how the medication was going to make me feel, and if I would tic under it or not. After I was breathing in the laughing gas for a little while, he put a needle into my arm that had anesthesia.

I felt very calm and happy, and then they started the surgery. They had my arms loosely buckled down so I wouldn’t move too much, and I’m glad they did. I would have to say I had around 3 tics throughout the whole surgery, and they were arm tics, but they weren’t too powerful and didn’t interrupt anything. All in all, everything went smoothly and I was all scared for nothing.

The recovery is a pain because my mouth hurts all the time, but its getting better with each given day, I am constantly taking the medication and advil in-between to ease the pain, which is helping.

All in all, I just wanted to let you know that anyone who is going to have their wisdom teeth taken out, you’ll be fine!

Finished my junior year of college!

It is crazy to think that I just finished up my junior year of college. Next year is my last year, and then I am off trying to find a real job and an apartment, supporting myself. These past three years at Montclair have been absolutely amazing, and I wouldn’t trade them for the world.

I’ve gone through my ups and downs with my Tourettes, OCD and anxiety, but in the end, it has all turned out for the best. I’ve also had my struggles with friends, thinking I had found good ones and then realizing how wrong I was. But luckily I found my true friends along the way, and I am so glad I did.

This past year has been one of the best ones for me. I had all of my close girlfriends on my floor in my dorm, and I made so many new, amazing friends. I met and became close with one of my suite mates for next year, and she is a sweetheart. And, I finally turned 21!!

Next year I am living in an on-campus apartment, and am so excited! After a while you’re just kind of like, “OK, I’ve had enough of the dorm life and the horrible on-campus food.” Now, I am living in an apartment with three other girls, and we have a kitchen! I am so excited to have a kitchen, you have no idea. To be able to make our own food, I am just so happy and excited!

I am trying to think of what we need for the apartment, and the only things I can really think of is a coffee maker/Keurig, a blender and a vacuum. Whoops, oh yeah, and a lot of decorations! I’m sure as the summer moves on our list will grow. Oh yeah! I tried my first cup of coffee this year!! I am really starting to like It, the only problem is it makes my tics works because of all the caffeine. Thankfully not too bad, but there is a slight increase. I’m just making it a point not to drink it every day.

I decided to make my major just sociology, and what I want to do after I graduate is work for this company that is about raising awareness for TS. I would love to later on go and do my own thing and become a motivational speaker about what I have, but this I feel would be an amazing start (if I get the job once I graduate). After that I hope to become a novelist on the side, maybe write a memoir or an autobiography, and then novels on the side.

Now for all of you that are going into college, or are in college, listen up:

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I’m back!

Hey guys, sorry I’ve been gone for so long. I’ve been so busy with school and everything, but I’m back!!! A lot has gone on since I’ve been gone. I finally turned 21 in January, which is exciting!! I absolutely love being 21 — it’s so amazing! Also, I changed my major from education to just sociology.

Now, I know I said I wanted to become a teacher, but in the end, I decided that that;s not where my heart is. I honestly want to just become a motivational speaker for what I have, which is Tourette’s, OCD and Anxiety. (By the way, I love how my internet doesn’t know what OCD is and says it’s wrong, but it knows what COD is … that’s a problem!)

Along with that, I got a new therapist. Her name is Sharon, and she is incredible. She is not like a normal therapist, as she does not go by the books. She goes more by this meditation and talking to your highest self route. I’ll make sure to write another post about her and what she teaches me because it is so helpful, and hopefully I can help you guys, too!!

Um, I dyed my hair a reddish brown at the beginning of the semester, and then I just recently dyed it back blonde — I’ll show you guys a picture of how it is naturally, how it was red and then how it is now if I can figure that out!

Oh my goodness guys, I’m graduating next year! I cannot believe this!! I am going to be on my own and hopefully fulfilling my dreams! If I could become a motivational speaker that would honestly be the most amazing job in the world!!! I think I have an idea of where I want to work or how to come about that, but if you guys have any suggestions on how to get myself out there please let me know!!

Now let;s see, I’ve really gotten into the band The Neighbourhood — they’re really good, go check them out! They sing “Sweater Weather,” which is pretty popular on the radio.
Haha, now I’m just rambling. Anyways, that’s about it for what’s new right now! I will make sure to keep you updated!!